It’s gonna be a confession. And an honest post. And a scream out from the deepest of my heart.
I’m gonna start with a confession: whenever I open soc med page and see my friends post their babies picts, or their husband/wife’s picts, or they talk about their wedding plan, or about them working abroad, or having a really big project, I feel envy.
I envy that they achieved all of that at the same age as me now, while I have nothing.
Also, my friends have made big decisions at such a young age. Decision to marry, decision to have kids, decision to resign from shitty jobs, decision to go abroad, or start a business. While I’m here, sitting and just following the flow.
Well, yes, I envy them.
And that leads me to this: is it me who is not grateful enough?
I guess the answer is yes. I always envy others. But I need a help here. I need you to tell me what’s to be grateful of, what’s to be envied from me? What do I have but others don’t? Maybe it will open my eyes a little that my life is actually great and is leading to a brighter future.